This can't really be said :\
Can I be honest with you?
I don’t want you to take this the wrong way, but it was bothering me today and I just don’t want us to have any built up frustrations. I want to hangout with you, as in just us. You are my roomate after all. I understand she is one of your friends and how you feel about making other friends and how difficult it has been recently but you’re my roomate and I’d like to spend some roomate time as in just me and you and no one else. I feel like you’d rather room with her, and I just dont feel like I’m in my own space, I feel like a guest in my own room. I wanted to talk to you about this and not making it a difficult. I hope we can find some sort of a solution to this.
I signed up to be your roomate, not you and hers. If I wanted to live in a tripple I would have gone somewhere else.
this is killing me.
since you want to be with me you have to follow through with every word you say.
please, let it work out this time. second times a charm?
well thank you for breaking up with me, on the phone, one our one year anniversary.. after I waited a fucking six months to see you when you come home in two weeks.
made this for my friends. feeling nostalgic.
Can someone please explain to me how men think they can possibly break up with their one girlfriend of two years, for a friend of hers, then break up with her a year and a half later, only to try and retrieve a friendship with the first woman? CRAZINESS I TELL YOU. I absolutely am convinced I will never understand the minds of men, it’s as if they lose track of all the events that conspired with one woman when a new one comes along… have you know memory? I hate you, what don’t you get? Don’t just come along and expect me to be all excited to have your friendship back… that’s really NOT how it works. I wish you’d just leave me alone.
Honestly, I have become so accustomed to having THIS particular person out of my life, that I think his stirring up of my life now, is ruining my already in gutter, current relationship. I’m ready to go to college and leave all these people behind, because even if my boyfriend is ACTUALLY coming home from the navy after not seeing him for six months, that fact that he hasn’t called me for five of those months and still chooses not to, now that he does have a phone completely turns me off from seeing him at all/having a relationship. /end of rant.
I’m annoyed. Could you tell?
“Love Come Up” - Josh Kelley
Downloaded his albums, spawned by just discovering he’s married to Katherine Heigl.. good song. :) it put me in a better mood, despite the unfortunate circumstances that have been my life as of recently.
I previously did an entry on this book as well, this book is the first one I’ve read in quite some time that has touched me, in quite this way. It was absolutely beautiful. Hopefully, the movie does a fair representation, although they movies can never quite do justice to the best works of literature, i’m still hoping.This is an incredible book, I cannot say it enough. I have no idea how this is the author’s first novel because it is a flawless piece of work. It was the kind of book that enveloped you and consumed you. Whenever I wasn’t reading it I was thinking about the characters “What are they doing now? Is he ok? Is she ok?” It was the kind of book that has you trying to separate pages that don’t exist with the hope that there is more.
I don’t want to give the plot away but if I was to sum up what I learned I would say that it perfectly showed how very often the greatest beauty of human nature and life is revealed under the most tragic and painful circumstances. From experience I know that it was in the hardest of times that I saw how much Kevin and I love each other. In pain there is beauty.
Mury - The B Side to the Truth
This sounds like everything I want to say.
love.love.love.love.
tuesday come quicker!
Fourth of July party, usual craziness. On a walk thru the neighborhood getting away from the block party we (my older cousin and i), found this lady holding onto this dog she found that wasn’t hers that got out. Unsure of who’s owner it was, she left it off with us, to find it’s owner, after much searching we figured out it was the corner homes dog and then this friendly man carried it back to it’s fenced in area. It was the most loving dog, and had no problem being tossed around like a stuffed animal! His name is Charlie. Miss ya.
drinking tea from my alice and wonderland cup at 3am.. love it when he doesn’t call me back.
Baz Luhrmann - “Everybody’s Free (To Wear Sunscreen)”
Here’s the exact song my new tattoo represents. Like I mentioned, if you’ve never heard this, take a few minutes to sit down and really listen.
These lyrics, were on the last page of my yearbook, and it meant a lot to see this on my last page after reading thru and passing the faces I’m going to miss so dearly. Thank you Mackenzie for including this in our Senior Yearbook.
For months I went to bed without any contact from you, now suddenly after a week of finally hearing your voice, it’s hard to fall asleep without it, again.
I guess I should say a little something about my high school years wrapping up the way they have. I’m not going to pour all my feelings out and say I miss it, to the extent some other people in my school will. Honestly, I won’t. It was when I was standing in that gym when everyone else was chatting with their friends, that I realized, I’m still alone in my head, and these people have shaped me but those who have truly had an impact are those we will be staying in my life, and I just don’t see that happening with very many people from High School.
Prom was overrated, everyone was right about that. I enjoyed myself, but felt that it was, what is was, and it didn’t live up to the hype everyone expected. At least not for me. I dream of bigger things than proms, and gowns and hair that won’t ever look the way you want it to no matter how much spray you layer it with. My date, was the all-american boy of every girls Abercrombie dreams, and yet, something was off, but isn’t there always? I felt like I’d rather be spending the evening with someone I love, maybe it would’ve meant more.
Talking to Sean more and more has made me see the sweetest things in life are worth waiting for. All the shit and distance I go thru for those few times of the year I get to see him, are the moments I hold onto most when he’s away. I don’t know what the future holds for us, but I know we’ve made it this far..
Graduation, I didn’t cry and didn’t care as much as everyone else did. I soaked in the faces, the scenary, but mostly I just wanted to get the hell up and out of there. Maybe I never made the most of my high school experience as I should have, but I certainly plan to do better with College. You live and you learn what can I say?
Time’s up, these times are ending rapidly, I’m holding onto what I love and those whom I love, I don’t need much more than that. I want August to hurry on its way, I want fall air, and to smell the change. Enough of this waiting. I’m ready for something more.
